Growing up is hard to do!

Growing up is hard enough without parents making mistakes hindering that growth. I love my kids and would never intentionally do that. But I have been made aware that in some cases, I was doing just that.

Emmalyn is going through the "I want only Mommy" phase. Where she would once go happily to Grandma and Dane, and now is hesitant. Lately, she required time to warm up. So as to not upset Emmalyn I would let her do just that. But the time it took to warm up was becoming longer and longer.

One morning I had just woken up with Emma and needed to pee. I had carried her downstairs and asked Dane to take her so I could go to the bathroom. As I went to hand her over, she clanged to me and whined. Dane insisted she'd be fine, but I didn't want her to cry for me while gone so I took her with me. At that moment while sitting on my throne with Emma on my lap I realized what I was doing. I was damaging the relationship she had with her father. The same relationship where she would gladly go to daddy every Saturday morning, to let mommy get some much need sleep in time with Sam. Dane's a great father! He knows how to make our kids comfortable and happy. In fact, he's the clown in our house bringing seriousness down a notch, helping us all to see the see the bright side of life! He's quickly fixed the gap between him and Emma, I just needed to let it happen.

Next, I'd like to share some insight Maddy gave me. One night while getting Sam and Emma ready for bed with me (yes they still bed share my bed), she asked me when I was going to get them sleeping in their own beds. Advising me (yes my 10yr old) that they would never be able to get to sleep on their own if they didn't learn soon. Those of you who know what she is going through now, know how much meaning that statement meant!

HMM.. any thoughts on how to get Sam and Emmalyn to start comforting themselves without my hair. I really hate the hair pulling! OUCH. Yes, it's loving to put your kids' needs above your own, but I believe it's blinded love to not differentiate between wants and needs. What they need is to be able to comfort their selves with out mommy, I can't always be there.

Thank You Trish!

I think it's important to let people know when they've inspired someone along their path! Blogging, is something that I've always loved! But because I never had much direction on how to blog, or what blogging meant to me, I only added pictures from time to time. Those that know me, know how much I have to say about things. I don't plan on blogging with the intent to push my personal beliefs on others, debate, or post things which have no meaning in my life. No, I plan to blog only for myself. To be able to look back and not only see the pictures I posted, but also the thoughts behind them. Along with digital scrap-booking, blogging gives me the visual creativity that I don't yet posses

So big thanks!

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Experiences Make Me Me

I've always felt the need to be understood and accepted. I've always sought out advice when I felt lost.

But how could I expect anyone to understand what I've been through and then try to give good advice.

They haven't' walked in my shoes, haven't seen what I've seen, heard what I've heard, not felt what I've felt.

Experience

My experiences make me who I am. Only the Father knows what's in my my heart. God is the only one who knows what path will bring me peace. If that is in fact his will. Heaven is our only promised peace.

I now understand why it is so difficult for us all to come together on philosophies. Why people are divided in our world, our country, communities even our faiths.

However I am now more at peace knowing God is in control.

I've learned to still seek advice and comfort when I feel lost. But stop and review what I know in my heart and use the advice or comfort only if it aligns to the teaching in the Bible.

 - unknown

*Feeling Blessed

My new shirt!

Gotta love Facebook advertising. But I couldn't pass this one by! This shirt is so soft and snugly. Too bad I didn't order this in winter!

The light of Jesus reaching out to me through others

The past week has been a very enlightening time for me. I've discovered many things about myself both good and bad. And am now learning new ways to be a better mother, wife, and Christian, all the while staying happy with my choices. I've taken the past few days to let this all sink in. I put off the usual cleaning besides dishes and laundry, to organize parts of my house that collected clutter. It felt so good to purge the things that didn't have meaning or use to us. While physically purging, I was also doing the same in my mind. Of course life didn't stop for me to do this! I had to from time to time stop and be just be present with my kids and husband.

A big thanks to all people who helped me come to this crossroads in life. You may not know who you are, but chances are if you came in contact with me, you were apart of my growth. It just goes to show, you never know what actions or words both good and bad will affect another person. 

Mathew 5: 14-15

14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.