Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Swamp of Sadness



"Artax, you're sinking!" Oh God, make it stop! *


Life is hard not knowing which roads to look down, let alone traverse. Knowing God is with me helps, but it's hard to focus on the present like he asks when my mind trips me up. Staying focused when so many lives are dependent is difficult. Jumping from one obstacle to the other it's easy to trip fall and get stuck! Easy to let myself give up and fall into the mud (swamp of sadness *). But God keeps coming to rescue me over and over again! Thank you Father!

*Never Ending Story (aka... my life)

Monday, September 29, 2014

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

A day in the life - I am my kids' mom!

My days start before my alarm goes off.. my brain churning, spider-webbing, looking for solutions to about 10 different challenges that lay ahead.

Getting my 2 boys off to school, yes challenging, but nothing compared to what lays asleep upstairs in a tomb she calls a room.

My well rehearsed conversations I've had in my head begin to play out. I'm good at living in my head but practicality is my Achilles' heal.

After morning missions accomplished or not (depending on how well my mental theories and putting them into practices turns out in reality), I have a moment of reprieve from all this madness.

BREATHE, JUST BREATHE!

My afternoon comes too soon (50 minutes to be exact). I put to the test more of my brainstorming from my early rising. Most afternoons I spend the majority of my time in the car. But the conversations are epic! The gas worth every penny!

Once all my little birds are back in the nest, the chaos crescendos at the witching hours. That time when help is not home from work, and dinner is underway. That is the time when I most want to introvert! Yesterday was one of those days where I sat on the couch watching the insanity unfold all around me.

My 2 littles - One with a chair pulled up the fridge handing the other syrup for his concoction to trap ants swarming into the house through faded paint cracks.

Next the big kids fighting about something I'm sure is important.

While I sat on the couch watching the whole soap opera unravel eating bonbons.

That last sentence has just one lie... I don't care for bonbons.



Tonight if felt different. Got my butt off the couch, put out all the fires I let burn for a day, and bucked up!

Looking up at the pink clouds that blanket the neighborhood with a rose colored view. This change in reality made me think of this quote...


Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Taxi Service

I can't wait till these kids can drive themselves! Oh what a happy day that will be.

"Christian can you run to the store for a gallon of milk after you pick up your siblings from school?"

2 years later

"Oh miss M*, run to the store and pick me up some tampons." BUHAHAHAHAH!!!

At least I'm not having to drive to the Jr. High 4 times a day now! Exposure therapy, yeah I get the idea. But dropping her off for one class, then picking up for lunch, dropping her off for a second class, and finally picking up at the end of the day was EXHAUSTING. Poor little Emma thought we lived in the car.

"Come on Emma, we have to drive to school."

Every time her response would be...

"No I stay with Dadda."

"Dad's at work."

"Stay with brubber!"

No Christian's at school."

"Stay with dog."

Sigh, poor little miss having to be toted around everywhere.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Wordless Wednesday - Kissing Hand



And away he goes!


Samuel had a great first day of Kindergarten! He enjoyed showing Emma his classroom, cubby, and desk. As soon as this new friend showed up he was ready to say goodbye. This is gonna be a great year for Sam!

"More knowledge, more power!" - Samuel