Celebration of life

 

This was hard day to get through as it was biter sweet. Hard to say goodbye but so thankful for all the memories that family and friends shared of my dad. I have learned so much more about him from others points of views. And as I sit here watching the littles play in the hotel pool, I see that he is in them! Like silly nature of Sam who like my dad liked to live in the future looking for the next adventure or the next BIG fish to catch. 

An enigma

Hence why my blog some months have an entry everyday and others have maybe one. I'm constantly writing in my mind, things I want to get out, things I want to remember, things I wish I could forget. But sometimes I just don't have it in me and I suppress it all, letting it eat me up inside. Pain sometimes feels good, and I wallow in it all by myself. 

Shorty

I knew this day would come. But seriously, this soon?!!!  Christian 14 and now Maddy 12, surpassed me in height. Christian complains of growing pain every day and had a 2-inch growth spurt over the summer, putting him now at 5'2" and a half (the half he always points out). Thinking back, I don't think I ever had growing pains or growth spurts, just slow and steady to reach my full potential at 4'11 and a half (I too must point out the half LOL).

Back to School

I NEED some quiet time! Then I will be recharged and more engaged!

Others may see me as outgoing and social, and I can be for them. But for myself I CRAVE alone time! For those wanting all the things I offer and do for them.. they NEED to give me alone time. It helps to have a little time to remember who I am. No soaking up the wants, needs and emotions of others. Just time to commune with myself and my God. Write a poem, read a book, watch a movie, listen to music.. all things I love to feed my soul. When my internal timer goes off, I'm ready to soak up those wants, needs and emotions from others. 

I give

I lay down with her in my arms

Let my hair down to for her to grasp and pull

She pulls, and twines, and takes

I give and give and give.. for I have so much to give

love to give my love, my strengths, my everything, yes even my hair if you wish

Without sharing my gifts, I feel I am nothing

Who am I, if not for someone to share it with

Just be happy!

I may seem intense when I absolutely can't wait to break up a fight. I am not one of those people who can just let a fight play out. I feel a great need to stop the fight in it's tracks! WHY?? Because I absorb the feelings and experiences of those around me.

Please, Please...

Likewise I crave to feel happiness from others. I do all that I can with my abilities and talents to make everyone around me content, happy, fulfilled, and loved.

The emotions I felt while family viewed this made me in turn so happy and fulfilled

Mother's Day present

 I loved taking these pictures and then presenting it

#1 Coach gift

All year long I take pictures with this project in mind

 

I make a Christmas calendar with all the grand kids every Christmas for my parents

This took a lot of time, patience, and love

Happy Birthday Dane 11/14/2013

How easy it is to take the time to make him smile

Fathers Day 2012

These scrap pages are always done at the last minute :)

Grandma & Grandpa L* anniversary scrap pages done every year

I know all my actions and words haven't been kind. Sometime I make someone else happy and another suffers. These pains will forever hurt!

Solitude

New short haircut

 

Graduate GHS

 Pictures to follow someday when I get a hot minute.