I usually write under wants on the fridge whiteboard- "World peace!" Sam and Christian will then draw pictures of war, like mushroom clouds and nukes. This time, as you can see, Sam under my want for "X-mas Joy"- Kahuna on a sleigh. Later, Christian drew tiny Kahunas leading the Kahuna sled.
Thursday, December 21, 2023
Needs & Wants
Sunday, November 12, 2023
PDX Coins
Friday, June 30, 2023
Yard Sales!
With summer here the boys and I have been having fun going to garage, estate, and yard sales. We scored this guy for free! Meet Larry the Lobster, he now adorns the dashboard of our Kahuna mobile.
Tuesday, March 21, 2023
Cape Disapointment
Tuesday, August 23, 2022
Gold Rush FEVER!!!
Friday, August 19, 2022
Seafood Boil / Gaga's B-day!
Monday, April 18, 2022
Christian's 21st Birthday / Easter Sunday!
Sunday, January 30, 2022
Christian the cat whisper
Tuesday, December 21, 2021
Friday, December 10, 2021
Stress relief kitty!
Rockin' CCC speed run course!!!
With 24 hours to spare Christian finished his last essay. So very proud of him for pulling off this Christmas miracle!! Now he/we can chill for a week before the trip!!!
Thursday, December 9, 2021
spoon therory
On today's adjenda..
Too fast!!!
I'd be mad too! Mom (me, myself, and I) said we would go to do something today now it's been scheduled for tomorrow if I can, then I got "squirreled" doing something else. That doesn't mean that I don't love him. Sigh...can everyone in this family give me a HOT MINUTE to get everyone on the same page!!!
A conundrum I can type, however, I don't like the pressure. UGGG he's taking a speed run course on nutrition. Great subject to study, but not so great when he suffers from OCD. But hey we're learning a lot of great info! He dictates I type.
Wednesday, December 1, 2021
Dad's funeral speech, I never said (draft)
Everyone knows my dad at a glance, within the kaleidoscope of memories. I hope to hear more about who my dad was today.
For me, I don't remember much before I was 10—just bits and pieces before he and my mom's divorce. I think I blocked it all out because of the hurt at the time. The next 10 years I spent with my mom and stepfather. Summers, I would come to visit. We always made the trip to Disneyland and my beloved In-N-Out Burger. He'd always complain I ate him out of "house & home"... duh, I was a teenager. Sash would always take me under her wing to hang out and chill.
When my oldest was born, I was extremely proud to introduce his first grandson. I shot a video of him and Christian in our living room, practicing how to crawl. I remember that feeling like it was yesterday!
(Find this video/pics)
Again, 2 years later, he was here to watch Maddy crawl for the first time.
(Ditto)
The most common memory is the greeting at the airport... and the saying goodbye, which honestly makes me the most sad. I know you're supposed to be upbeat about someone's life. But what about telling everyone you care about TODAY..."I love you and you matter to me!"
Saturday, November 6, 2021
OCD, no it isn’t about being a “neat freak”. #ocdrecovery
How does one get categorized with severe rather than run-of-the-mill OCD? I didn't know either! It's a point system in the DSM(the big book of what's mentally wrong w/ people). The more time spent on compulsions that disrupt your life, the higher you're categorized. My son would spend 3 or more HOURS stuck in that bathroom every night torturing himself! And if his compulsions got him stuck in the middle of the day, keep in mind we have ONE bathroom! But hey! We got to know our neighbors quite well LOL. Thinking back, I really should have used that time to drop seeds of Jesus in their living rooms while waiting for little Emma to pee. ;)
Today we're in a better place thanks to medication and a lot of weekly therapy. It didn't go so smoothly at first, as you can imagine. There were a lot of tears, both his and mine. I am also thankful for my amazing husband, who often had to take charge and Papa bear him to make it to those early therapy appointments. Imagine staying up all night with compulsions, only to have to turn around after just drifting off to sleep to attend a much HATED ERP (exposure and response therapy ((think torture and do nothing about it)).
I'll end this post on a funny note because the picture of our messy lives isn't always just doom and gloom. During one ERP session, the therapist took him into the neighborhood of a downtown city block. The goal was to touch as many germy gross objects and not wash hands for half the day. I know gross, but the chances of getting sick were low, and it was more important to get his life back than to worry about getting sick. Towards the end of the walk, she instructed him to touch a dumpster. As he reached out... OUT POPPED A HOMELESS DUDE! He didn't expect to get two exposures in one!!!
It’s like you have two brains – a rational brain and an irrational brain. And they’re constantly fighting.
– Emilie Ford
Sunday, October 31, 2021
Spooky!!
Christian is getting IMHO quite talented! He has a photographic memory and currently loves experimenting with color blending. I'm trying to get him to try a college class in painting/art/color WHAT EVER! If not a future career, at least a loved hobby!
Tuesday, June 22, 2021
Light at the end of the tunnel
Sunday, April 12, 2020
Christian 18th Birthday Party!
Thursday, April 9, 2020
Christian's 19th Birthday!
I can't believe my firstborn is 19 years old! While we usually have a big extended family celebration. This year our spring birthdays are being celebrated at home. Christian decided on a lemon raspberry cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory. YUM!!!