Beautiful heart.

You didn’t make a mistake by loving them. You should never regret loving. You didn’t make a mistake by giving them a chance. That’s a reason of strength, not shame. You didn’t make a mistake by trusting them, believing them or being there for them. Do you know why? You actions reflect you. You would do this for anyone that comes your way. It just happened that those were not appreciative of your pure intentions. You didn’t make a mistake. The mistake was their choice to make by not respecting and appreciating your beautiful heart. ~– Najwa Zebian

Perfectionism

This week Christian failed in his eyes. Receiving his first C in his adv bio class has proved to be the end of the world. This takes me back to the time he would obsess about laying his train tracks out in perfect order taking his sweet time. Then having a complete meltdown when his baby sister would remove a piece of track, finding a new button to push begging to get his attention.

Summit ahead, or another peak to climb?

Nah.. I know there will be many peaks and valleys. 

I love this time at night when I can just breathe, and finally analyze the day from all the different angle I've had to juggle. Sometimes I take this time to research things that have plagued my mind, other times I just feel like turning the day off by watching a movie or reading. It depends on how selfish I am, the more of myself I have lost the more I feel like diving into another world. Today like most days I was extremely busy, but unlike most days today felt more hopeful. You see most days I feel like one step forward two steps back.

Today felt like there was actual hope to not only to make a difference, but see someone else take one, two, three steps forward! I'm not only once again hopeful.. but also feeling prideful.  

Soccer 3 years ago... Wow how they've grown!

First day of preschool for my last!

It was a bitter-sweet day... bitter for me, sweet for Emmalyn. She has been so excited to start school! Every fall morning, in Emma's eyes, she saw all her siblings (x Maddy) leave home to have adventures she had missed out on! Emma's outgoing personality craves to interact with others, whether at the grocery store talking with every grown-up that passed or at the playground making best friends, she would never see again. I'm grateful she loves going to school, and will finally have her own adventures!!! But I have to admit that having my fourth child be so independent and extroverted is a learning curve that is sure to whiplash me every step of the way. I'm not sure that I'm ready for this whirlwind child!