490 and then some

Even if this wasn't written in my bible, for those we love it's easy to do. In fact, I think it's actually harder for the forgiven to accept. It's easy to take things out on people we love most, because we know they are safe. The words said in anger are just deep frustrations that need to be vented. Only those that love you know that it's not your true self, but life just getting you down. I've learned to be patient let the storm pass, and wait. Instead of anger to show love and understanding, and in return I get it back.

My 5th child

Chloe 4 months

Fly away home

I'll Fly Away

Some bright morning when this life is over
I'll fly away
To that home on Gods celestial shore
I'll fly away

I'll fly away, oh glory
I'll fly away in the morning
When I die hallelujah by and by
I'll fly away

When the shadows of this life have gone
I'll fly away
Like a bird from these prison walls I'll fly
I'll fly away

I'll fly away, oh glory
I'll fly away in the morning
When I die hallelujah by and by
I'll fly away

Oh how glad and happy when we meet
I'll fly away
No more cold iron shackles on my feet
I'll fly away

I'll fly away oh glory
I'll fly away in the morning
When I die hallelujah by and by
I'll fly away

I'll fly away oh glory
I'll fly away in the morning
When I die hallelujah by and by
I'll fly away

Just a few more weary days and then
I'll fly away
To a land where joys will never end
I'll fly away

I'll fly away oh glory
I'll fly away in the morning
When I die hallelujah by and by
I'll fly away
I'll fly away

I'm at a loss for words, this has been a very hard week loosing two grandma's. So much will never be the same. Seeing the strength that both of these ladies possessed makes me continue on, and aspire to be greater. Someday I too will fly away, it's up to me now to make the most of this life God has given me.

Sweet mornings

Maddy waking ME up singing... 

"Good morning, time to get up!"

What a change from me pulling blankets off her and bugging her every morning with the song... "Good morning sunshine, time to get out of bed!" Guess she decided to play Freaky Friday that morning.

Sam snuggled in bed Saturday morning.

"Sam, I wake you with a back rub every morning before school, do you think you can give me one today?"

Grumpy Sam - "No!" Exits my bed, and leaves me bummed.

10 minutes later.. a sweet change of heart.

"I'm sorry Mom, you deserve back rubs too."

He gave me the most epic back massage, that boy has talent!

Christian having his first Jr. High girlfriend has its perks.

Lately, I don't have to tell him twice to get out of bed, nor do I have to remind him to brush his teeth every morning.

Poor Emmalyn always strapped in the freezing car seat while I take her siblings to school each morning. 

Emma - "I stay wit Brobber"

Me - "Christian has to go to school."

Emma - "I stay wit Dada"

Me - "Daddy has to go to work."

Emma - "I stay wit Dog."

Sigh... "Come on Emma time to go."

Let the walls come down

So many secrets held, and holding them costs so much! Praying for healing, and the hope that one day you will let the walls come crashing down. Walls erected to keep others out, to dull the pain, to pretend things aren't the way they are. Those walls all that are paper thin, we can all see through. But what's on the other side is someone that God loves and wants desperately to be happy. The reason for the walls are understandable, yet not-necessary. Those that come knocking understand and turn away head hanged low, arms and heart aching. The walls WILL someday crash down, and those waiting will be there for you always and forever.