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Love suffers long

Today's sermon spoke to my heart and begs others to listen. Corinthians 13: 4 first-line... "LOVE IS PATIENT." When we are not patient with others, it does not reflect God's love. How many times has God been patient with us? Just a minute after we are forgiven we are bound to sin again. 

I always have good intentions that fall flat, and God forgives me and will always be patient with me. 

Being patient is always harder when we're under stress. Lack of sleep, time, money, etc. can easily make the best of us lose patients. I pray for patience several times throughout the day, I battle so many stresses that weigh me down. I also pray for those I love, to have patience with me. 

The other day Christian did not pop out of bed to get ready for school. I found him warm in bed with the covers over his head I pushed and pushed, got angry, and lost my patience. Then I gave it some time, gave up on getting him to school, and prayed for patience. All morning I assumed he was just being lazy and defiant. After patiently listening I learned he was upset about his great-grandpa's death the night before.

Being patient also means you get the whole story! Instead of just assuming you know what is what, ask. Be open and listen with an open heart and mind. What little YOU SEE of someone's life, is not their reality. Making judgments based on your view is not loving someone. Love is patient, love is kind! Ask and learn THEIR  truth. 

Love suffers long NKJV

(Patient - suffering)

Tenth Avenue North - Healing Begins 

So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do so we think that you're good
And you can't believe it's not enough
All the walls you built up are just glass on the outside

So let 'em fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark, the light meets the dark

Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find that the shame won't disappear

So let it fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now, we're here now, oh

Last memory

Last October I traveled to Salt Lake to celebrate Grandpa's 90th birthday. Only a few of the greats were there, they got restless in the house with a bunch of grown up. I took them out to play rake the crisp leaves. After we got a huge pile ready to jump in I told my nephews to get everyone. Grandma and Grandpa came out to watch the fun. The smile on Grandpa's face while enjoying the chaos of their greats playing, was the last great memory I will have of him.

Cry me a river

According to science, crying helps us to feel better. It triggers the release of the stress hormone cortisol and feel-good endorphins. For many people, crying can also help them identify and process their emotions, leading to a better understanding of how to improve their situation.

I feel like my eyes are burning and my head constantly hurts. The floodgates of pent-up emotion have opened, but I still struggle to understand and manage my feelings. I've helped those around me, but I can't seem to help myself.

Melissa Manchester - Don't cry out loud

Can remember my mom playing this song when I was a kid. Comes to mind whenever I have to hold back tears.