I think my rebellious teens, my short career as a 911 dispatcher, and constant early/midlife drama at has tainted my taste for this life as a SAHM. I can imagine a life other than what is, and still come back to the reality that I would choose no different. But the fact remains I'm languishing here. I find little joy in house work (other than my OCDP tendencies), don't enjoy constantly arguing with little people, and find little to talk about with my husband about at the end of the day when all is quiet.
I try to keep my head above the fog. Every couple months I binge through a book or two, I recently started exercising with a friend, and then there's always netflix or youtube to fill the gap in time when kids are in bed but the sun rays say it's too early to dream. BUT I'M STILL BORED!!! SIGH... I don't care much for painful drama, but something needs to change I'm feeling so stagnant! Yes, I know there are lot of ideas and opportunities to do "things", but they all just feel like I'm just filling up time. Time that I have to spend with other people.. ugg! Time that I could be doing.....
K.. I'm done rant over. back to Netflix :(
