Single mom + benifits

Dane working his 9 to 5 job then pouring his heart into his business, ends up working 120+ hours a week. At times I feel like a single mom, putting her big girl panties on to do what needs to be done. I wish I could feel accomplished, but I often drop the ball! Four kids who depend on me can be exhausting! Even so, I can't sleep restfully at night. I am constantly plagued with guilt that I could be, should be doing so much more for my kids. I constantly complain to myself and retreat in my head, making it hard to focus on the things that need to be done. And the the balls drop!

you never know until you try!

Being weak/lazy.. it's an excuse
scared.. an excuse
too proud.. stupid excuse

I get it.. trying is hard! Out of your comfort zone.. eeek! But pride, that just leaves you to yourself in your own little, tiny box!

Happy New Year! 2016

Stayed up till midnight this year! Now it's time for bed after I figure out my resolution....

Love these two artists.. Great SONG

If you're attacked by a shark... hit them in the nose! And KEEP SWIMMING!

Over and over again I feel the shoreline is out there, albeit far away I still swim. Even though I continue getting pulled down defeating what little headway I made.

ie..

Sam's temper sends everyone else's temper into hot water. Aside from Emma who wallows in the shallows.

Emma can easily create a frenzy that we all fail to recognize till it's too late.

M who shall not be named - fails to acknowledge others, sending us to the deep end, and back, and back, and back again.

Christian who knows all, mocks any headway accomplished.

All the while, we parents are trying to find the safest, fastest, most prudent course to shore. No time now for character lectures! We're all flawed as our trials have proven. Our family can and will learn lessons on the cusp of sharp teeth.

So not only will we all survive, we'll look back on this journey as a family laughing in the face of adversity. We'll finally crawl on to land, breath a deep sigh of relief, and enjoy a coconut that Sam has volunteered to crack open for us all to share.

*Sam always insists on buying a coconut at the store so he can later whack it with a hammer! Good skill to have, if we ever wash up on shore!