Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Shorty
I knew this day would come. But seriously, this soon?!!! Christian 14 and now Maddy 12, surpassed me in height. Christian complains of growing pain every day and had a 2-inch growth spurt over the summer, putting him now at 5'2" and a half (the half he always points out). Thinking back, I don't think I ever had growing pains or growth spurts, just slow and steady to reach my full potential at 4'11 and a half (I too must point out the half LOL).
Monday, September 28, 2015
Tantrums!!!
(You'r already FIRED!!!)
This morning Sam fired me for bringing him the wrong size pants! Seriously??
"Oh Sam what was I thinking, how terribly thoughtless of me!" "I had no idea how sensitive you were to over-sized pants."
One minute he is a happy go lucky kid going on about the gravitational pull of other planets, and in spit second something goes wrong in his little world..... KAABOOOM!
Monday, September 7, 2015
Tuesday, August 18, 2015
Back to shoveling snow in my snow storm!
My dream vacation is not Maui or Disneyland (although we are going in -9 days whoo-hoo). No, my dream vacation would be a third world country with a village in need of help. I would love to not only teach our kids the many blessing they have but also humble my own heart. To help others in need would fill a purpose in me that I feel I'm missing in life. I have done little things though out my adult life to help others in need, but always feel I fall flat. I'm either all in or I pull inward to a lazy selfish existence which ends up sucking me down into depression.
Lately I've been utterly depressed! Loathing my life and feeling exhausted. I have been shutting down. Neglecting Facebook (no one cares), no reading (my imagination suffers), no researching (my brain suffers), no blogging (my sanity suffers), no forward parenting (my 4 kids suffer).. nothing! Just pulling inward and shutting everything and everyone out. Those that have been truly depressed know what this feels like. To have no drive or incentive to pull your ass out of the abyss. What's the point right? I'm sick off feeling like I'm shoveling snow in a snow storm.
Today I feel like I took that vacation, abet it was a mini one. I helped (or at least I hope) dragged someone else out of the abyss. I saw what it looked like to give up and let the snow accumulate. Seeing all the damage it causes to give up, started a fire within me. I grabbed the shovel and made dents, and saw progresses. Taking on that endeavor, I feel myself seeing the light of day once again. I still wish I was not the way I am.. either all on or off. I need to find a happy medium! No I am not manic depressive, I just live in a world, time, situation that is not suited for who I am. Here I am making the best of it. Just need to keep swimming! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming... WHAT DO WE DO?.. SWIM, SWIM,SWIM!
(this pic makes me want a better vacation..swimming in Maui)
Labels:
depression,
trials
Monday, August 17, 2015
Summer's dragging on!
Summer is great for catching my breath when I've been running all year long. I love wearing flip flops, shorts and sunglasses (when I can find them). Loosing track of time, days, weeks on end. Staying up late and sleeping in (kinda, Emma is an early riser). Not worrying about all the many school hang ups my kids have.
HOWEVER......
I'm longing for the cooler weather and routines that come in the fall. Although I feel a storm brewing with the start of a new school year, I also know once blown through I will feel refreshed with my days set into routines once again. The spontaneity of summer is driving me batty! Time to set alarms, schedules, and yes... more alone time for ME!
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