I was really worried about Maddy's reaction, as she likes to tell me over and over again how it's not fair that Sam turned out to be a boy. But she was very excited once she decided to believe us after seeing the ultrasound picture. Christian and her spend the rest of the afternoon deciding if it was going to be a girl or a boy. Then we figured that since the kids now know, we mine as well tell the rest of the family as the kids never could keep a secret. Dane had a lot of fun calling his sisters to spread the news. Since he's the prankster in our big extended family, no one believed him at first. So he put the kids on the phone to verify it. It was a very fun night!
After seeing the heartbeat and telling everyone the news it feels more real now. Which I haven't decided is more or less frightening. The resolve to not have more kids was hard for me to come by. I yearned to have another but finances, space, and my sanity kept me from pursuing another baby. Now I know that Gods plan was not that of my own. I feel so much love from him, this gift is just a reminder that he knows what our hearts needs. I will trust in him that everything else will work out. I pray of course for more financial security, space, and sanity! However, that might not be his plan and since I can't see his big picture. So I guess right now I should also pray for patience :)
Oh.. I almost forgot! Sam's reaction. We tried to explain to him mommy had a baby in her tummy. I said "the baby is this big now, and when it comes out of my tummy it will be this big." "Then you can hold it." Sam not even taking a second to digest this information said, "No I'm gonna eat it, put it in MY tummy." :)
