This is how I originally came to make the leap of faith, in.. well faith. Growing up I did not know God. I knew of him but didn't know that he loved me and was waiting. He was waiting for that moment when I tethered myself to him. It didn't happen overnight but began with a question. I dug deep into this question. Is this important, is this real, should I put my time into this faith that everyone else in my new family is professing? I came to a similar conclusion of this C.S. Lewis quote. Mine wasn't quite as eloquent as his. I thought if God is not the maker of this earth and my soul, I'll die and cease to have conscious thought, no "HA HA, I was right, there is no God!" BUT, if I am wrong and I had not believed in God as my savior, therefore would not be saved, I'd live out an eternity burning in the pit of hell with all-consuming regret. That might have been a very selfish and very analytical push of faith. But that was what brought me to hear the word, which in turn change my heart of stone to one of flesh that softened and grew. My journey in life and my walk with Jesus thus far has had many highs and lows. Today, was another high. This I know for sure, life, when I don't turn away from the light is so much brighter and full of hope! It feels so much better to live by his word and take comfort in his presence than without. I pray that I hold on to this feeling and not let the darkness overtake me again. I am human, I will lose sight from time to time, but God is always there when I return saying "What took you so long!"
